Sunday, December 19, 2004
listening to SYZ's "wo ye heng xiang ta".
over and over again.
wallowing in the bad feelings with every repetition of the song.
a song that seem to be written for what we must be going through...
should i be glad not to be in her position?
which story is less painful - the guilty happiness at the expense of two broken hearts or
the anger at having lost to someone who started so late and did so little?
sigh. i really don't know anymore.
it is always always always on my mind and
even when i am in your arms.
this is too unfair to you
that i cannot give you and be everything that you deserve.
do you. will you, in time. feel this way too?
i need to break down this barrier
but only with my waning strength.
i am scared to face it
alone.
Please tell me you will be there.
the little oven posted at 5:21 PM
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