Saturday, December 04, 2004
so the papers are over.
it was not an easy period. but i have survived it anyway, with many little scars reminding me the times i fell. under my expectations.
i feel so numb. must be a post-exam withdrawal symptom.
it will pass. right?
hopefully very soon i will
feel and live once again.
i know you are trying hard
with every envelope and flutter.
and hushed words
that speak straight to my heart.
the icy icy heart that
perices through your every effort
with its glassy eyes.
"i am so so sorry"
even guilt comes in just these words and nothing else.
i was aloof. distant. impenetrable.
but you seem to know it all
and apologized for
something you have been a victim of.
the monster seems lost. too.
in the spiral of this empty shell.
the little oven posted at 2:15 AM
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